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o...this is one of those days when I feel like I need to breathe in a paper bag. Spirit crushed and all that. That feeling when you see/hear/read about someone that is very successful and has achieved so much and you think: "Shit. I'm never going to come even close to that..." And just the thought of the things that you're not, but you're supposed to be...
I'm 27 and I know I should be wiser. Probably the most valuable lessons that I have come to realize for myself are that the things that happen naturally and evolve organically are the ones that should happen to me. When it starts to feel like a struggle, it means that I've stepped away from my own path. That I shouldn't be comparing myself to others, that I should trust my inner voice, that everything seems better or worse from afar...but still.
It doesn't mean that I should not do anything to improve myself, to evolve, to venture into unknown places or step outside my confort zone...but I think when it's right, apart from fear you should also feel that spark of enthusiasm that keeps you awake at night.
So, typing this I come to realize for whatever time that comparing myself to others has done nothing but stopped me from expressing my true self, doing things my own way or at my own pace (rather then not doing them at all for being too afraid that it's not the right way), wasting energy at trying to do things I don't really want and just plainly wasting time in worrying.
Have you felt this, have you felt overwhelmed of the things that you're not...I hope you have. And if you have, you and I both should remember that we should compete with ourselves and not with others. Learn from them - yes, comparing brings nothing but trouble.
